Jackanapes

this word has a funny history of how it stuck to me. back in high school me and a partner were supposed to guess what a word meant and we had the word ‘jackanapes’ and our chairs were facing the door to our classroom and i said ‘is that a monkey?’ thinking about our word, when in that exact moment another teacher walks into the room. my partner looked at me shocked and i was like ‘what?’ then we burst out laughing.

she thought i meant the teacher was a monkey.

Awesome is Awesome

ok, so clinical midterms are done and i am doing super great!!!! =) it feels awesome to be awesome in clinical. damn, i’m working hard for this rotation and by golly it’s nice to see it paying off. i’m absolutely horrified at my second test though…. damn weird way to ask questions [my instructor].. i went to the review and i can freaking understand when she asks what she means but the test itself was worded so freakin weird that i got confused. F. lol that was just not right. she was doing that on purpose to mess us up lol. anyways, next test and another course due for a short answer test. YAY!! term is almost done, student loan money is finally coming [omg] and i am going to apply for a few more part timers. i need cha-ching yo!!!

Damn. Damn. DAMN.

i wasted 3 hours on the internet again instead of studying for my test on monday. DAMNIT. >__< !!

Using Tink for a Character Name is Scary…

so anyways, here i am making good time in studying my course materials for monday’s test. woohoo!!! am i pumped to study this or what?? lol, but seriously i understand this better than i thought i would… i realized that i often daydream or space out during class and miss almost all of the most important lecture points. damn you, overactive brain. lol so with a bit more reigning over my mind, and what do i get super easy studying times =) damn, it feels good let me tell ya.. better than i expected. it seriously goes along with my best clinical year as well. so now i will rest and wake up early ready to face the COPD notes and onto the Dysrhythmias and Heart Failure  and Coronary Artery Disease. so wish me luck and good karma will smile down upon your kind hearts. seriously, wish me luck.

and also is Tink a name no can ever use again just because Disney owns the original fairy character? what if i use it as a nickname for my own character [not a fairy, just a 12 year old girl] within my own story? will i lose originality? will that be plagiarism? but how could you plagiarize a name? how do you lose originality using a name that someone else used? i mean, the entire population has loads of Tinas, Kimberleys, Michelles, and Janets. is tink an exception to that rule? but i seriously i know someone who actually has the nickname ‘Tinkay” [if you are filipino, then you would know not to read 'kay' as /kay/ but read it as/kai/.. lol i just disclosed my ethnicity right there]. anyways, feel free to speak your mind on this ‘Tink’ matter; i’m totally at a loss whether to keep using the name or completely abandon it.

Math as Medicine

wow. the minute i read this article: Math as Medicine, i was filled with admiration for this professor from University of Manitoba. his name is Abba Gumel and he works with numbers, but not just to solve those problems that only mathematicians can understand; he applies his knowledge to imprive the human condition. i salute this man; i really do. up until know i’ve never really understood why math was so important in our daily life and i even reached a point where i utterly hated math. but now i’m quite happy with the fact that math is actually a very useful tool in helping our society. i hope you enjoy the article =)

Cupid and Psyche

i’ve always been haunted by this couple’s story. i mean, i was really intrigued by it and as a result i am now making a story of how their children’s lives will be as mortals. okay so i know there are a few versions of how many kids they have but i decided to mix them all together so that i don’t leave out anyone, in that sense.. a few hours of searching over the internet and i found the prominently used versions, namely the one where the only have one chid, a girl named Hedone, and another one (from a book, i think, The Golden Ass; i need to check this later) where they have twins: Youth and Joy. so that gives me a total of three children. i just want to explore the side of psyche and cupid after they’ve married. i feel like their story should never end with ‘they had a kid; that’s about it’ kind of thought. i really want to explore different aspects of their love and also explore the lives of their children. however, i think with that in mind, it will be hard to think of a one straight to the point storyline just because of the complexity of the myth that i’m using as my base or background. i’ll definitely do it though. the story wants to be told. i had to write a post about it because i couldn’t sleep trying to figure it out last night. lol

this is called ‘Psyche’s Revival by Cupid’s Kiss’ by Antonio Canova. i really want to see this in person. i ‘ve always been looking at it as pictures over the web but that’s not as good as seeing it in real life.

Love Locked Out

this painting is by Anna Lea Merritt. she described the painting as ‘a monument to my husband. In my thought the closed door is the door of the tomb…I feared people liked it as the symbol of forbidden love, while my love was waiting for the door of death to open and the reunion of the lonely pair.’

i saw this painting in a book of painting collections and i just couldn’t forget about it. the first thought that came into my head when i saw this was ‘amazing.’ and when i read the title of the piece, i immediately realized how sad and lonely the [idea of the] painting was. it really stuck out to me and that’s why i took the time to look for it again so others can also enjoy this masterpiece from Merritt.

Love Locked Out (1889 Merritt)

*sigh* i could stare at this forever. lol but seriously, this is such a wonderful piece of art. i wish i was there when she was painting this. that would be a very interesting and memorable time i bet. she has a lot of other paintings as well; a very talented woman indeed. =)

Miyuki Miyabe’s Brave Story

i started this book and i must say, she writes like i write… well, i guess since she’s older than me, i write like she writes. i read so many books in the past, and i’ve had an idea of what sort of storytelling the authors used and this particular one was so shocking to me because i felt like i was partly there when it was written. you know how a child would tell stories? MM’s writing style in this book is exactly like that. it’s actually one of my favourite styles because you can integrate so much detail, either of past events or the current person the main character is talking to or whatever; the writing style is very accomodating.

i like the fact too that this writing style tends to be more engaging, as though the reader is actually a firsthand reciever of the story, the way a friend would tell their best friend what happened the past three years after living in a foreign country. i can’t expain it quite so eloquently but i suggest, if you really are a reader and one who particularly enjoys storytellers either from your personal lives or from books, it is a very good reading experience. =)

it is a great 800 pager. no, seriously. it’s such a good book. =)

Tomato, Potato, Kobato!!

OMG. this series is like syaoran and sakura all over again, but slightly older versions.. i guess you could say they look alike because the creators are the same and have a uniform art style, but i adore the relationship between the two. LOL, ok i’m sorry i haven’t even introduced the topic yet, so i will do that now: Kobato.

so, the main guy in this manga is i guess the guy from the nursery school who keeps bugging kobato and annoying her. Fujimoto. i really like the way they interact with each other, it’s so cute! <insert fan girl squeal here> and fujimoto just looks so damn hot in those glasses and that long hair. i keep wondering though, how it would look if he just came out of the shower… … … nosebleeds don’t even do the image in my brain justice.

so, right now, i think there’s an anime show coming up and i hope they keep to the story and plot of the manga. i have a theory as to who kobato is and where she might possibly ‘wishes to go’  so all i am sure of is that she isn’t human. and i think the main reason she can’t fall in love with those people whose hearts she heals is for the very same reason. she doesn’t belong in the human world i guess and she’s from another world, either heaven or hell or the otherworld.

ALRIGHT! spoilers!! from here on in, read at your own risk. a big hunch of mine is that she want to go to heaven, maybe because her parents are there? maybe ioryogi is her dad? lol it seems farfetched at the moment but the silhouettes they show is of human form as well as ginsei, on a one night when kobato was singing as the rain fell. and they said what iorogi or ioryogi [spelling issues in the scans] ‘wants’ is in heaven, he didn’t get it. and there’s a mention of him waging war in ‘heaven’. and that’s why he was punished and made into a plushie to help kobato fulfill her wish so he can go back to heaven and i guess ‘get’ that something [or someone, hint hint] that he wants.

even ginsei’s real form is intriguing; he [she? that cute little thing with an eye patch confuses me when it comes to it's gender] has short hair. ioryogi on the other hand, has long spiky hair; if that is a human form’s silhouette [somewhere in the manga..]. and most funny of all, touya is fujimoto’s co-worker. isn’t that hilarious? now there’s a good chance that sakura [CCS] will meet fujimoto and find him very similar to li syaoran.

there is one thing that absolutely bores me in the manga. i don’t like how clumsy or naive kobato is. but i guess she’s like that for a reason, huh? that reason is not clear yet to me, so i have to keep reading it to understand her situation. i wonder if her parents are alive??? being a child with no history and past [as of yet], i can’t help but wonder about this specific matter. i mean, how is a young girl [human or not] allowed to be left alone, doing a mission to be able to fulfill her one and only wish? it seems suspicious. maybe one parent sent her to do the task to be able to see her other parent? maybe they’re separated and living in other worlds because they have no choice and they have to obey the laws and rules? i don’t know, but the more i read, the more theories spring to my brain.. more spoilers on this picture..

see? and also, even the chobits girls are in the book; well, i mean they [the twins in the kobato manga; the landlady's daughters] look identical to the chobits person.. anyways, i am interested in ginsei and why he’s so interested in ioryogi’s business. he seems to be so damn close to him and yet ioryogi regards him almost as an annoyance. what’s the deal, eh?

but anyways, sayaka and fujimoto’s relationship is also blurry to me; i can’t tell if fujimoto is just concerned because he’s grateful to her or if he’s concerned because he has feelings for her. but more and more, sayaka keeps hinting on fujimoto always thinking about kobato, so maybe that’s the actual love team. YAY! fujibato!! does that sound well? i mean, the mix of their names… or maybe it should be kobamoto.. that sounds weird..

anyways, i found a really hot looking vocaloid kaito art from the internet. whoever drew this one, i salute you for making my fantasy a step closer to becoming reality. LOL kaito is hot. period. and yet fujimoto is there at the back of my mind… NOOoooo!!! fujimoto is for kobato!!!!

god, the sexiness of this. the star on the nipple makes me feel like i'm looking at porn LOL

ok! that’s enough excitement for one night. got work tomorrow so… ciao for now! =)

Sure I Want It

my new short term goal: the iPod touch 64GB. OMG, i am dying to have this one.. the extreme amount of space is luring me in as well as the excellent visuals. my dad has an iPhone and i don’t find it as interesting, i guess because he doesn’t use it for entertainment.. i on the other hand only want it for the sheer amount of videos, music i can input and games i can play. LOL, i just wish they’d make better games for the iPod touch, like make it closer to a Nintendo DS or a PSP or whatever, with Mario games or whatnot. i like arcade-ish sort of games. 2D doesn’t even matter as long as it’s fun. so here’s to hoping that by the time i get money for it on january 2010, that it will have more games that have a little more in depth to it… i really like the leveling up sort of thing [i play vampires on my dad's iPhone..]

and also, since where talking about apple products anyways, i’m torn between the iMac 20 or 24 inch. i mean, the 20 looks shruggably okay, and the 24 looks extravagant. but if i’m gonna pay good money, i might as well get the extravagant one, right? LOL, ok problem solved, i guess. here’s to wishing a little more money gift from the parents over christmas. Geez, i really need to always think about these things if i really want it, eh? I want an excellent table to go along with it too, as well as a good chair. lol my back always hurts if not attended to properly. massages are a great thing. i wish i could go get massages for free all the time. that would be awesome, just as awesome as my future iPod touch and iMac. hahaha, dreams are good.

here’s to hoping, my sister doesn’t borrow loads of cash from me so that i can’t even save up for it again. did you know my precious [LOL] $2000 [saved up specifically for my imac] all went to my family? either for credit card debts or mortgage shortages or something else. and i am not the type to ask for borrowed money; i tend to let them pay me back in their own pace, which is bad considering the ones who borrowed from me are the top criminals of not paying me pack at all LOL. but no worries, such a huge amount will not go unpaid. i will try to ask for it back if the opportunity comes up. for the time being, i will continue staring at the iPod touch and iMac for about an hour. =)